I’m Sammi Jay, 21, lesbian, feminine, photgrapher & I also work full time. I adore the fact identity, the everyday and sexuality draws me as a photographer. I’m blunt, gay, dreamer, talkative, deep, thinker, explorer, honest, optimistic, weird sense of humored, very sarcastic, stupid, sensitive, unworldly, compassionate, selfless, creative & imaginative.
Art, living life, roller blading, museums, galleries, traveling, music & cameras complete me as a person. I love to keeping my head held high at the worse of times & just keep a brave face. I love to capture moments in my life which i feel is perfect & accepted.
My outlook on life is always just live it each day at a time and never plan your future ahead because you never know what’s gonna happen, who your gonna marry, have children or even have a great deal of money. I have hopes and dreams like any other human being on the planet. Yeah, i really want my future to work out and i want the career i dream of. However, my actions of the present any only equal out my future now instead of the late future i wanna be able to see but oh well.
Relationships & friendships mean everything to me. Mostly friendship because it’s the promising key to any upcoming relationships & the people you will meet. Without friendship & trust, i just don’t believe any realationship can last. I’m not a negative person when it comes to relationships but i do look at the positives & the negatives to any of my relationships I’ve had in the past and why should i make the choice to be with them? & Will they benefit me in the near future? Friendships are my world! The bond between you and a best friend i don’t think can ever be broken properly. If so i think I’ll only have myself or the other person to blame, doing something really unforgivable, selfish, heartless, negative & just darn fucking ignorant, to even think about your friendship. In all respect this isn’t even worth beating your brain & heart about.
I like to think I’ve grown up better then I’ve hoped to be. Yeah, I’ve not had the best of relationships with my parents in my younger days but now i would not change anything about the past. I have a relationship with my Mother which I’ve never change ever. She’s basically my rock and i would really not know were I’d be without her today. She’s always been the one to believe in me at the times were I’ve been at my lowest & my highest. She takes me with a pinch of salt when it comes to my anger & always accept my apologies no matter what. Friends have envied me because of the relationship i have with my Mother. I’ve always kind of got my own way since a young age but If i ever over stepped the mark she knocks me back down and puts me in my place which I honestly respect her and anyone who do that to me because it’s shows they know me to a T.
Honestly there was one night i thought she was going to give up on me & never wanted to come back for me but she proved me wrong & I think that’s when your parents accept you no matter what. I remember when she found out i liked women and i seriously thought it was the end of the world but she’s sat me down and said ‘Sam, i love you no matter what! I just didn’t understand why didn’t you come to me and tell me? You’re my daughter! You can tell me absolutely anything.’